The Fire of Deconstruction….oooooh, sounds pretty extreme, right? Well, it has been extreme. I have been unpacking my beliefs for a bit now, several years, in fact. The blogs shared in this area will be windows into my soul and how some toxic beliefs I was raised with broke my natural inner workings. The good news is that my inner workings were not truly broken, they were merely hidden under layers and layers of bullshit. Since I have been removing the layers I am finding my inner beauty in ways I didn’t think possible.
Is it hard? Of course. Does it hurt? Absolutely! But, I would rather remove the layers and find the steady foundation of myself in all my glory than remain the “head in the clouds pretending all things are good” disingenuous person I have been for many of my fifty years.
The Easter Bunny Died for Me
“I am not inherently evil.”
Once the revelation escaped my lips, my tears began to fall.
It felt like I had set a bomb off inside the house of Pam and loosed every nail that had ever been pounded in and cracked the foundation beyond repair.
I had never registered the choke hold the ‘inherently…
Why is my friend Brooke going to hell?
Why is my friend Brooke going to hell? This question kept me up at night when I was 10 years old. I clearly recall laying in the dark of my bedroom and ruminating about the answer. Why would Brooke be going to hell? She was a very nice person and a good playmate to me.…
Pamcake Banter 